ALLAH lah sumber segala kehidupan di alam raya..

Dan Rasulullah Pembawa Cahaya bagi alam raya..
Ahlul BaytNya adalah Pribadi2 Mulia..
Yang tiada gentar dalam dakwahnya..
Menyampaikan kebenaran walaupun nyawa adalah taruhannya..
Merekalah Teladan Ummat yg pernah ada..
Di dalam dunia yg fana..
Yang Penuh tipu daya..

Untuk itu Ya Allah ampunilah kedurhakaan kami...

Ya Allah senantiasa perbaiki ahlak kami...

Ya Allah rahmatillah senantiasa orangtua kami.

IbuAyah terima kasih atas segalanya..............

IbuAyah kami rindu padamu saat ini.....

IbuAyah kami ingin engkau hadir bersama kami.........

Ibu Ayah maafkan segala kenakalan kami..............

Ya Allah ampunilah kedurhakaan kami......

Ya Allah rahmatillah senantiasa IbuAyah kami.

Ya Allah cintailah…kasihilah…sayangilah mereka

sebagaimana mereka demikian sayang kepada kami........................

RABBIGHFIRLI WALIWALIDAYYA WARHAMHUMA KAMA RABBAYANI SHOGHIRO

THIS IS WHAT , SHE WROTE ABOUT ME......

kadang2 rasa kesian kadang rasa cam x! Sometimes i just hate them.. ntah la donoe what i feel right now.

Memang betol what my brother said.. no matter how hard i try to push them away! They still gonna be my step sister n brother. My own flesh blood..

I donoe whats right and wrong anymore..

I still remember.. mama nagis trok sebab abh minx nak kawin laen. I hold her so tight.. so she will stop crying! Wondering what her fault.. Start from that day! I promise myself.. I will not forgive that "woman"!EVER! Sebab "dia" mama nagis! sebab "dia" mama kecewa! tapi sebab "me and my brother" mama sabar and relakan apa yg jadi! I can feel how hurt my mom was that time.. wlaupon that time i still kecik..but i know!

Cuba bayangkn..kita yg belom kawin ni! Klu bf curang ka flirt dgn pmpn laen..kita nagis bagai nak gilew! nak bunuh dri la..! How hurt we were that time.. Ni kan plak org yg dah kawin, then tpksa bkongsi dgn org laen. Hmmm~

But xkan sebab that "woman" i nak bencikan adik2 i lak? nak d'pikir2kan balik.. dorg xbsalah pon! ntah laa..

Bila i nak b'baik.. i rasa macam i b'salah dgn mama! xtawu knp..

And just yesterday i strt contact my step sys.. Nak rasa suka pon x..nak rasa benci pon x.

hmmmm...

Everything happen 4 a reason right? I'm glad my mom now become stronger everyday! And she can stand on her own feet..i'm happy for her..

We just wait and see laa what happen next..

Hope Allah will open my heart to accept them in my life..xcept that "woman" ! And other pmpn yg suka rampas laki org..sbb laki 2 kaya or anything! Coz i really3 XBOLEH!! and i XNAK!!!

(Alhamdulilah... jika ini adalah luahan dari hatinya, i'm speechless, deep inside my heart hanya ALLAH yg tahu... salahnya diletakkan diatas batu jemala patik yg hina ini. Salahnya hanya aku seorg.... jauh lg perjalanan ank ini sebenarnya... ttp kata2 darinya, begitu yakin bahawa kehidupan ini dlm tgnnya.Pernah ker terfikir perkara yg sama akan berlaku pd diri sendiri? coz dulu aku pun ..... hate so much went i saw, my sister dimadukan....mencaci pd org yg xade salah pd kita bagai nak giler.Last2 kena balik atas batang hidung sendiri. At that time, lidahku kelu teringat balik dosa2 caci makiku pd org dulu.... see, ALLAH dah bg cash atas dunia pdku... Now i learn from that...

hmmmmmm..... i 'm speechless, yes i do. Aku hanya hambaNYA yg hina, segala kata2 yg dikatakan pdku ini aku serahkan pd ALLAH. Aku xdaya... Aku sudah letih... Aku pasrah seadanyer.... ALHAMDULILAH)

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Di masa itulah kamu TUMBUH ...

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Karena itu kamu telah membuat suatu PERBEDAAN ...

Mungkin mudah untuk kita bersyukur akan hal-hal yang baik...

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Temukan cara bersyukur akan masalah-masalahmu…

Dan semua itu akan menjadi BERKAH bagimu ...

in the silence like this ...

all bind tightly all about you,

and I feel flattered when your eyes glared towards me

I dont know what happened to my heart ...

I may be excessive, I'm sorry ....

but honestly I'm glad to see you ...,

I feel happy when reminded of your smile ....

I really want to be the owner of those eyes ...

Can you find me when I feel alone?

like right now?

you are far away and perhaps never to touch me ....

Can a little while I lean on your shoulders?

just a minute .....

for I feel sure ....,

that you were there for me ...

for a moment let me see your smile, so I feel peace because you were at my side .

I dont know what happened ...

but I think, and I think this is the second start I need you ...

hold my hand tightly ....

and do not go away from me ....

I want you to stay here to accompany my laughter and my tears ....

Little that I hold from what I can ...

if time will bring me to the past ...

I'll ask him .., to immediately reconcilable with

I love you, but do I want tuk not hurt your heart

I hold what is left in my mind

I close the
remaining residual becomes whole again, although the pain ..

why is there a question? "Why did you let him into your heart??, So you're too hurt by it?"

then I'll answer "if the heart is so honest, without a lie, then this is what I think .."

I love him ..., I really love him ...

love that makes me want to have him completely ...

but different from the facts,,,

circumstances make me always learn to understand,

without he understood I was a normal woman ...

I, too, can be broken and wounded,

I'm close to tears .., I'm bonding with the soul kelukaan

I also never expected me to deal with this complex situation,

I was not going to survive if his love do not always reside in my heart

and Allah also know ... I still love you ...

I was with a sense that I really love you ....,

Nubhan-Seadanya aku

AKU SEADANYA AKU, AKU ADALAH AKU